Thank you for loving me!

Lately a few things have happened in my life (that I don't want to go into here in part because there are some things in my life that I truly believe should remain private) that have lead me to realise how lucky I am to be married to Mrs.Sparky! She is so kind, thoughtful and understanding and sometimes I really don't think I deserve to be with her or to share our beautiful daughter, Emilie, with her. This is a little bit to do with the self-doubt that runs through the very core of my being but also as much to do with the fact that I don't always appreciate her as much as I should. I know, or suspect, that all of us are guilty of this sometimes but with her feeling a little down at the moment, I wanted to take this opportunity to publically declare just how much I love her and tell her how glad I am that she came came into my life! I may not always tell her but I like to think she knows these things. Sometimes though, I guess it is just nice to have these things affirmed. Which is why I have decided to write this post! And also why I think the lyrics of Bon Jovi's "Thank-you for lovin' me" are so appropiate to my relationship with my wife!

"It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see for
Parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue

Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes when I couldn't see
For parting my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me, yeah

Lock the doors
Leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes oh, when I couldn't see
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips when I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
Oh for loving me"

One of the things getting Mrs.Sparky down at the moment is the fact that it is looking increasingly unlikely that we will be able to afford to move in the next few years and, in order for us to have another child, which she really wants, we would need a bigger house. I know sometimes you can overthink things and that sometimes you just have to go for them because otherwise what you want will never happen, but you also have to be practical too and our house really isn't big enough! It distresses me too, maybe not as much as Mrs.Sparky it is true, but I am trying not to dwell on it too much. Right now, all I am thinking about is how lucky I am to have such a lovely family. My depression has not surfaced so far this year and ideally I would like it to stay that way! Sometimes you just have to be thankful for what you've got and shouldn't try to dwell on things that could be, but on the here and now!