So today has been one of those 'meh' days. We all have them, whether we are writers or not, it is just a fact of life. Mine today has been brought on by what I call 'the day job.' You know, the one that actually pays the bills.
There are days when I really don't feel like I can be bothered anymore, when I realize I have come to despise my job, and when all I want to do is be writing. I long for a day when I am successful enough to quit and just write full-time, but also realistic enough to know this may never happen.
I know lots of writers, have connected with many of them through my newly increased social circle; do I know many rich writers? No.
There's not a lot of money to be made in this business I can now call my own, but there is a lot of love. I have discovered a real passion for writing stories, find it really rewarding, but the chances of me becoming the next J.K.Rowling or George.R.R.Martin are only fractionally better than my chances of winning the lottery, and that's because I don't play the lottery.
What's more, these people worked very hard to get where they are, and success didn't come to them overnight. It does happen, rarely but it does, but if it happened all the time then it wouldn't be newsworthy would it?
Forgive me if I repeat myself or if I have said it all this before. It's just been on my mind a lot today. That I would love to turn around, say screw you and stick your job - I'm a bestselling author, whoop whoop, wanna fight about it?
Till that happens though, and first I have to FINISH my book, I guess I'll just keep slogging away.
BTW, novel update: realized today that just in the first chapter, I have lots of characters whose names all start with D. There's a reason for some of them sharing a first initial - it has relevance in a scene much later on - but think I need to change at least one of them otherwise it is going to stand out like a sore thumb. Grrr...but at least I caught it now rather than later. This is the sort of thing us writers worry about, and you know what? I'd much rather worry about small stuff like that than get all stressed out over the day job any day!
I can't wait to get further into this project. I hope you guys end up as excited about reading it as I am writing it. I'm expecting it to get a big reaction when I eventually get round to releasing it into the wild...
Next week, my Blog posts might be shorter. It's a busy week for me. Still, am not giving up so close to the end! 9 DAYS TO GO....